Waking up.

*Wiggles and stretches my fingers.* Boy this is going to be a long post. There isn't a character limit on these blog posts right? I hope not because if there is I'll be going over it. And I don't feel like splitting up this post. Anyway here goes.



This morning Kat EAT woke me up. Told me it was time to get moving. She It had already put my stuff in a car and made me a sandwich to eat while driving. Can't complain about the service I guess. o.o

Me:"Well..umm thanks.."
EAT:"We don't have much time. Lets get moving."
Me:"Where are we going?"
EAT:"To one of the safe houses."
Me:"You could be a little more specific."
EAT:"You'll just have to trust me."
Me:"You killed my best friend and I'm supposed to fucking trust you?!"
EAT:"Yes."
Me:"You really don't understand human emotions at all do you?"
EAT:"My experiments with human psychology are one of my least effective ones. However I do understand the basics. Your anger at me is pointless, you will survive longer with my protection."
Me:"Whatever. You can't just go killing people for knowledge, there are better ways to get smarter! You are a monster!"
EAT:"How is killing humans for knowledge any different than killing for money or power. I am no more of a monster than your fellow humans. You humans seem to forget the horrors you commit when accusing the Fears of exactly the same things."
Me:" At least we don't.."
EAT:"You don't what?"
Me:"...Not all of us are like that!"
EAT:"You eat other organisms for energy. I eat them for knowledge. Just because I eat humans makes me worse how exactly?"
Me:" Because..I.."
EAT:"Exactly, you don't know."




I didn't know how to respond to this. So I just got dressed and followed her to the car. Once she got inside I took my chance and ran off. I didn't care if It could keep me safe or not It's a fucking Fear!
A soon as I'm no use for her anymore It'll kill me. So fuck her and her bullshit.


I managed to outrun her pretty easily. When I thought I had lost her I looked around to see where I was. I didn't recognize the place but the street signs were still in dutch so probably still in Belgium.
I then heard someone running towards me. I couldn't see who it was because it was still dark. But I assumed it was EAT so I ran.


This time I couldn't seem to lose them. I was still tired so I couldn't run very far so I tried to hide behind a house. It didn't work this time.
It wasn't long before I was found. It wasn't EAT it was Jim, I recognized his mask immediately. Even though Incognito clearly shot him in the head he was still alive somehow. He came at me with a large knife. My weapons were still in EAT's car so I panicked and tried to run.

I was too slow, he stabbed my arm. It hurt like a motherfucker. Before I could react he pushed me to the ground. This was it, I was going to die. He stood over me with his knife ready and his other arm hanging limp. Probably still from when I dislocated it.

But then as he was about to stab me someone pushed him away. It was Kat.. I mean EAT. She then helped me get back up. Before we could get out of there Jim attacked us. Kat ..EAT jumped in front of me and got stabbed in the stomach. They struggled for a few seconds. I wanted to help her but I froze when I saw her "bleeding" water. She then told me to run back to the car. I ran while she held him down.

When I got to the car another camper was waiting for me. It was a woman around 25 years old. Must have been a new camper since her eyes were still dull and her blue hair was wet. I asked her what happened to Jim and Kat. Apparently Kat's body was "killed" by Jim but a group of campers had taken care of him.




She bandaged my wound and drove me to the safe house. After we arrived she treated my wound and told me to rest. It still fucking hurts but I'll be alright. Physically at least, emotionally I'm a freaking mess. With Jim and Kat gone (even though they both were already gone.. its still different..) I'm all alone now.

Even that fucking Cecilia doesn't give a shit about me. She fucking kissed knight and then suddenly realized "Oh that's right I'm going to Belgium now. I wonder if Alicia exists in this universe."
WELL I FUCKING HOPE I DON'T!

I'm sorry I'm getting too emotional. The old me wouldn't have cared about some girl all across the ocean/universes that only talks to me on these blogs. But I guess being hunted by eldritch abominations changes people.

That reminds me I started this blog because of Jim. To record my dreams but I haven't done that in weeks. Maybe I should just stop with this blog. I'll just stay here with EAT, let her study my "resonance" thingy. That way I'll be safe-ish. It's that or giving up because I just can't do this anymore.

Incognito once told me all things come to an end. And that I should think about returning to a normal life. Maybe.. maybe this is as close as I'll get to a normal life. I know I can't trust EAT but its better than being on my own. And if I don't use this blog anymore I can leave my old life behind and focus on this one.

Anyway I guess its time I say goodbye. Not really because I'll still be around and leaving comments but I won't be updating this blog anymore. You guys have helped me more than you realize, thank you for that.

Stay safe and don't die. I'll try to do the same. Alicia Owly out.<x3

Flash drive open thee!

EAT just told me she cracked the flash drive! Apparently in the file was a list of all the previous and currently known Resonators. o.O
Hundreds of them from all over the world. (Which isn't much if you think about it.)

I'm on there next to my father, who was apparently also a Resonator. It also says he's deceased. Oh well, never knew him. That does explain him running away though. That sucks.. :/
I'll probably end up like him eventually. Oh god..
And according to the list there is one more Belgian Resonator. It doesn't say much about him/her though. Now I really am confused as to who would send this to me..

Anyway, short post but I thought you guys should know this. <x3

A talk with EAT

Talking to eldritch abominations isn't easy. It only left me very confused. I'll just write down the conversation before I start ranting.

Me:"Let me out of here EAT. I need to run before tall dark and Faceless finds me."
EAT:"Do not worry. Tomorrow we will transport you to a different location."
Me:"Why the hell would I go anywhere with you?!"
EAT:"As you just said, to avoid the Slender man."
Me:"I can do that on my own."
EAT:"He will find you if you go on foot. My camper can drive you around. The faster you travel the harder it is for him to keep up."
Me:"That's bullshit! He can find me anywhere and anytime."
EAT:"No, He cannot. He has too many targets to track. Even He has limits, this is why he uses proxies. By travelling faster you can avoid him slightly better. The fact that my camper are with you also helps."

Me:"What?.."
EAT:"Tomorrow we move out."
Me:"..What did you mean with your camper also helping? And why the fuck are you doing this?"
EAT:"Most of us "Fears" as you humans call us try to avoid each other. And why am I doing what?"
Me:"I meant why are you locking me up and helping me?"
EAT:"As I've said before I am studying you."
Me:"Studying me? Fuck that shit! I've heard about how you study people I'm not letting you come near me!
EAT:"Calm down. My intent is not to harm you. You are worth more alive and healthy than you would be wounded or dead."
Me:"So you can turn me into a camper you mean. <.< "
EAT:"No. You do not have any knowledge that I want. "
Me:"Why did you turn Kat into a camper then? She didn't exactly have much knowledge about anything.."(I didn't mean this the way it came out but yeah.. Kat wasn't the brightest person I knew.)

EAT:"She knew where to find you."
Me:"What? How?!"
EAT:"On her blog she stated having found a notebook with your location in it."
Me:"But that was a trap wait wha.. Who put the notebook there?"
EAT:"Yes it was a trap but the information was accurate. And I do not know who made the notebook."
Me:"I see...But why would you want to study me that badly? I'm just a normal nerdy girl."
EAT:"Well that is complicated. You are not just a normal human female. You are one of a few humans that because of some unknown reason amplifies the effects us "Fears" have on our surroundings.
You can compare it to a resonator. I wish to study you to find out what causes this resonance. This is why the Slender man wants you so badly. If he managed to turn you into his proxy he would gain an advantage, same thing for the other fears. Luckily most of them haven't found you yet.


Me:"I'm what?..I don't..But doesn't that mean you would want to make me into a camper? Or worse dissect me? I don't get it.."
EAT:"I have only gotten my hands on a few so called "resonators". The camper process always neutralized the resonance and so did the death of the study subjects. This is why I want you alive."
Me:"So the Intrusion came after me because I'm a resonator thingy?.."
EAT:"No. The intrusion stumbled upon you by accident. They mostly act on instinct. There is a chance of your resonance making your house an easy gateway into this world for them though. "
Me:"Then why did the fuckers attack me a few days ago?!"
EAT :"You destroyed one of their hives. They recognized your smell and thought of you as a threat probably."
Me:"Oh.."


At this point I gave up on asking questions because any question she it answered three more popped up. I just asked her if one of her camper could hack into this flash drive I still have. Don't get me wrong I'm still running away from her the first chance I get. I just need time to process this..<x3

Living with EAT

So according to his personal slender proxy Incognito is still alive. Kinda suspicious how his van supposedly blew up for almost no reason. But that could be the proxy's fault. I only know this because said proxy updated Incognito's blog. Lets just hope he isn't lying.

Anyway I was right about EAT once again being the one that locked me up. This time however I wasn't in there for long. She It released me not too long after my last post. I use the word "released" in a relative sense because I'm still trapped in this house. Atleast its more than a dark and tiny room I guess.

Kat EAT was the one who treated my wound. She It said she it didn't use any liquids contaminated with ichor/ink. I'm not sure I can believe her but I already tried escaping and that failed so I don't have much of a choice.
She It is not a very talkative person. Which freaks me out a bit, I'm not used to seeing Kat this quiet. Then again its not really Kat but still its weird. Kat used to be like a hyperactive chipmunk on speed. And now she's.. just dull.

The dull look in her eyes has lessened though. Must be her body adapting to being a camper or something. I would try escaping again but she it took most of my stuff. I just have my clothes and this laptop. At first I refused anything Kat EAT gave me but I need food to survive so ye.

So far I'm not obsessing over anything yet so who knows, EAT might actually be telling the truth. She It has saved me two times already so...
Ugh who am I kidding Fears are monsters she it's just doing this for some selfish reason. I can't let myself be fooled. That's it, I'm going to talk to her and if she it doesn't let me go I'll force her to.

I'll let you guys know how it went.<x3

Damnit EAT

Mr.I:  "Current plan, change of towns, we hung out in one spot for far too long an..."
Mr.I: "How are you holding up?
Me: "Good enough."

That was a lie, I wasn't holding up at all. I was breaking down, slowly but surely. Its a miracle that I'm still standing but I don't have much of a choice now do I?
I'm not going to repeat my ranting of a few days ago, or was it a week? I can barely remember how many days have passed since I started running. Instead I will just write down what happened.


I was in the middle of saying something when suddenly SPLAT. A flying spider flew against the windscreen. It freaked me out but Incognito needed some time to realize that it wasn't a normal bug.
"We need to go faster..." He said. "Much faster" I agreed. "BUT NOT IN THAT DIRECTION!"
I shouted because ahead of us was a swarm of bugs coming right at us.

Mr.I: "Fuck me sideways."

He swirled the car around trying to get away from the intrusion. But the road was slippery and we hit a street light. I quickly got out of the car and grabbed my stuff. I threw a can of raid to Incognito and ran off with another can.
Incognito follows me and quickly catches up.


Mr.I:"Hold on dammit!"
Me:"I'd rather not."
A flying spider came too close for comfort so I sprayed it.
Me:"FUCK, how the fuck are we going to lose these things!"
Mr.I:"Still thinking!"




He shot at the bugs behind us with his shotgun. It didn't help.
Mr.I:"Knew I needed a flame thrower."
Me:"Too late for that!"



Suddenly a group of those huge crabs were blocking our way."CRAP!" I panicked.
Incognito rolled his can of raid at them and told me to get back. He then shot the can and it blew up.
I dashed through the small path that the explosion opened up. But Incognito got knocked down by one of the crabs.

Mr.I:" GO!"
Me:"Crap! Here take this!"

I threw my can of raid at him hoping it would help him. When suddenly another swarm came at me.
I quickly ran into an alleyway. I heard Incognito fire his gun several times. So I turned around to see if he was alright but instead one of the flying spiders bit me. It hurt so badly that I screamed. I tried to get away but my memory gets hazy after that point.


Now I'm here, the bite wound has been bandaged and once again I have no idea where I am. If EAT is behind this again I swear I'll punch her it in the face. Even though she kinda saved me.. I guess. <.<
I hope Incognito is alright..<x3

Little owl.

If the owl does not wake up she will fall.

That is something I can not allow.

Lolcats

Sorry for not posting yesterday but I was just... Jim is dead.


We were staking out the building for hours without anything exciting happening. When suddenly my Internet went poof. I told Incognito about it and he thought it was odd. He said something had to be messing up the connection.

Me:"But what could do that?"
Me: "Dammit I was just trying to enjoy these lolcats." (Yes I like cats, fuck you.)
Mr.I:"I suggest you prepare, if something is intercepting the signal, then something is coming"
Me:"Agreed, should I try on my new gloves, or you think they can't be trusted? That is if whatever is coming isn't a Fear."
Mr.I:"You never punched me with those gloves, so I can't really tell if they will be useful or not"


I couldn't tell whether he was being serious or if that was an attempt at a joke. His voice sounded more serious than it should have. But then again, it always does.
He continued by saying something about experimenting with the gloves. And how it was hard to see how it could be a trap. But before he could finish talking a sudden flash came from the dentists building.

It blinded us for a few seconds. When we regained our sight Incognito grabbed his gun and asked if I wanted to stay or come along. I wasn't going to stay behind, if we separated we would be easy targets. At least I would be. <.<

So I put on my gloves and grabbed my knife. I then followed Incognito in to the building. Following his advice of sticking to the walls. After a walk that seemed to take ages we finally got to the dentists office. Incognito kicked down the door and aimed his gun down.

In the dentists chair was a body. It wasn't there last time. It looked like it has been dried of all bodily fluids and was all scratched up with numerous holes in it's body. In the head there was a hole with an eye, it looked like it's been poked numerous times. the body is also missing teeth and is dressed in a doctors uniform. I almost puked when I saw it.

Me:" This wouldn't be the dentist I hope? Any Idea what could have done this?"

Before Incognito could respond we both heard a faint sound. We couldn't pin point where it came from so we quietly looked around trying to hear another sound. But when we did it was too late.
Someone grabbed my arm from behind. I reacted by punching him in the jaw, I could tell it was a heavy blow but it didn't seem to bother him. It was Jim.

Incognito draws his gun and aims at Jim but couldn't get a clear shot. So I hit Jim's elbow with my gloves and managed to dislocate his joint. This gave me the chance to get out of his grip, I rolled over the floor and stayed down.
Jim came directly at me and Incognito shot him through the head.

Me:"Jim!!"
Mr.I:"Won't be getting information out of him..."
Mr.I:"Lets go, nothing to do here"
Me:"But Jim He..Why did you have to kill him you could have shot him in the leg or something!"
Mr.I:""He was going after you, probably a kill shot, wasn't going to take that risk, was either you, or him, and since he was one of them...It was a pretty easy choice."
Me:"I..can't argue with that...lets just go back to the van." I couldn't stop my tears as we walked back to the van.
Mr.I:"No point in mourning, it was better to kill him off, rather than let him be killed by one of them, who knows what happens after death by their hand."
Me:"Ye..."

I knew he was right but still..It was Jim. I'm the reason he's dead now. I just..
I haven't talked to Incognito since. I just sat here trying to forget with some help from lolcats.

Coconut crabs

The thing from last post was just some giant crab-lobster thing that suddenly landed on the windshield. Incognito hit the brakes when it tried to bash through the glass. We slipped on the ice and almost ended up in the river. Luckily Incognito managed to stop the van just in time.

 He then got out and shot whatever it was but the bullet bounced off its shell. It shrieked and turned around and seemed to want to jump towards Incognito. I quickly popped the hood and flipped the bastard on its back. It ended up sliding into the river.
It didn't pop back up I think but Incognito got back in the van. And got us the hell out of there too fast to find out. I didn't mind at all.

I later tried to google the damned thing and apparently it was a coconut crab. How the fuck did that thing get here? I know the intrusion has done weirder shit but these things are supposed to only live on tropical islands. Belgium is neither tropical nor an island..
At least it wasn't a flying spider. I fucking hate the intrusion. x.x

Anyway we still haven't had any luck with our stake out. At least I'm enjoying the free food and daily coffee. Also no luck with the flash drive. I would ask Incognito if his hacking computers could help but I doubt he'd want to use them. And I'll respect his wishes. o.o

I'll report when something worth reporting becomes reportable. <x3

Another present

What the hell is this? A national lets-anonymously-gift-Alicia-mysterious-things day? Because this is really starting to weird me out. When we came back from dinner there was a package lying in front of the van. It had a label saying "for Alicia".
Mr.Incognito didn't trust it, neither did I. After a long debate that I won't bother posting about, we opened it carefully. I'll give you one guess as to what was in it.


Nope not that and not that either.Seriously you guys have dirty minds. Just kidding, although its probably true, partly at least. In the package were two things. The weighted knuckle gloves I wanted so badly and a note.

"Little owl why won't you wake up. The clouds aren't what you think they are. Perhaps these will help you open your eyes."


Sounds very familiar if you ask me. <.<
For those that didn't read Kat's last post before she became a camper, it's her it. Why did EAT send me a gift and why did she it seem to be helping me last time? It just doesn't make sense, but then again none of this does.
I'm not sure I trust the gloves but they don't seem wet or anything. I won't be wearing them until I'm sure they are safe. (Which means never.)

Mr.Incognito is driving right now, we are trying to find a good place to start our stake out. Not too far from the dentist's office and not too far from decent places to get food. We just need OH MY GOD WHAT IS THAT THING!

Dentist appointment

Finally had a decent nights rest. That doesn't happen often anymore. Incognito offered me a cup of coffee as soon as I woke up. What a service. o.o
When we got out of the van he started talking.

Mr.I:"So tell me, what would you like to do after all of this mess is over?"
Me:"Over? ..You don't mean the Fear mess right? Because I highly doubt that will ever be over."
Mr.I:"Everything has an end, and when it ends, you have to be ready to accept the normal life."
Mr.I:"That is why I ask, I want to see if your ready for when it all will end."
Me:"I don't think this will end with me alive to be honest. I've never heard of anyone living a normal life once they got too deep in this Fear shit."
Mr.I:"There's a first time for everything, I know I'm not coming back, whether I survive or not, I damned myself a long time ago"
Mr.I:"You and many others still have a chance, think about that"


A chance for what exactly? There isn't a way out of this, if there was somebody would have found it already. And I know the servants will claim that "joining" Them is the way out. But its not, its just a way to delay your own death while sacrificing the lives of others. So any servant that wants to tell me that, go fuck yourself.

I asked him what the plan for today was. Apparently his former partner had a friend that lived here. A dentist, I hate dentists. x.x
Luckily we weren't going to get our teeth checked. No, we were going to get him to check out a bullet. I had no idea dentists had any knowledge on bullets. o. o
But this one did, so off we went.


We stopped in front of a building's stairs. It didn't look good, the door was covered in dust and one of the windows was broken. I asked if this changed our plans or if he wanted to take a look inside.
We both thought it might be a good idea to check it out. I grabbed my flashlight after he knocked down the rusty door. I stayed behind him because it didn't seem like one of those "ladies first" moments.

The dentist's room was a huge mess. With dried up blood and several teeth laying around. I don't even want to imagine what could have happened there. Suddenly we heard a window break. Incognito reacted quickly and drew his gun before running back outside to see what was happening.
I followed carefully but we were too late. He said he saw someone run away but then whoever it was just disappeared. Even though there were no alley ways to run into.

They must have used the path of black leaves or whatever its called. Assuming it was a proxy. We agreed there wasn't anything we could do there anymore so we headed back to the van. The plan now is to stake out this place from a distance in hopes to... I don't really know what we're supposed to be looking for. Its Incognito's plan, I'm just here for the free coffee and food.


I'm also loving the fact that I've barely seen any Fear or proxy activity. At least less than I'm used to.I really needed this "resting time" even though I know it might end anytime now. What does keep me busy is this flash drive with the file I can't open. My computer skills are lacking. x.x
Maybe I don't even want to know what's in there, but human curiosity is a dangerous thing. <x3

Slim Cognito

For once something went better than I expected. I waited at the cafe for three hours while drinking some coffee. I didn't even notice him walking in.

"You, Alicia?"

I looked up at him and could barely see his face since it was hidden under a dark scarf and hood. The rest of him was also hidden under a grey trench coat. He looked exactly as his name implies. The only part of him I could see were those cold eyes of his. (Not Cold boy cold, just...you know, cold.)

Me:"Uh..yes"
Him:"This is Incognito, I got what you need, it's in the van outside, a couple of steps away from the cafe"

Yup, If you hadn't guessed it by now it was Mr.Incognito one of the people that comments on here and other blogs. I had sent him an e-mail because he offered help and supplies. Which was exactly what I needed. I wasn't sure if I could trust him (I'm still not entirely convinced) but I took a chance.

 "Ah, sorry I lost track of time. I didn't know it was that late already." I got up from my chair while eyeing the van suspiciously."OK...lets go then." I kept my hand near my knife,just in case he tried anything suspicious.

Mr.I:"So how are you holding up?"
Me:"As good as possible, considering the situation. And you?"
Mr.I:"Dead as always."

Well that's a gloomy answer but I can't blame him. Plus he did look kinda dead, he barely looked at me while we talked. When we got to the van he opened the back doors, it was impressive. Inside was a whole set up of computers and hacking technology and stuff. Food and water that would last for months at least and a large metal box full of weapons. He grabbed a small box which was apparently full of credit cards and handed one to me. How the hell did he get so many credit cards?

Mr.I:"This one has enough money for you to survive a whole month, the password is         "
Me:"Thank you.."

I then told him how good it was to finally see another runner. He responded just as coldly as before, I hope he isn't always this cold that would be boring. He then asked if I needed a weapon. I said yes, I mean extra weapons never hurt anyone..wait that doesn't sound right. <.<
I asked what kind of weapons he had and he opened the metal box. That pretty much answered it, he had almost every weapon I could imagine. Except of course the weighted knuckle gloves I wanted. :/

He said I could take any non firing weapon in there. Because he assumed I didn't have any experience with guns. He assumed correctly.
He did offer a small hand gun but I declined. Like proxiehunter said in his blog, Its not possible to kill an innocent kid from two blocks away by missing your target with a knife. So that's what I picked, A large combat knife. I had practiced with my kitchen knives a bit but this thing is a lot better, looks awesome too.

Mr.I:"So what's your next destination?"
Me:"I don't really have one, I'm just wandering from place to place."
Mr.I:"Taking into consideration your "Cold Boy" problem, I can offer you transportation until you think of where you want to go"

I really liked that idea, the cold boy has really been getting on my nerves. And if I'm not alone he might not bother me as much. At least I can hope. <.<
So I agreed. He then said I could use anything in the van except the computers. Apparently they were his friends computers, a friend who is gone now. Yet he keeps them around, guess he isn't that cold after all.

We then got into the van and started driving. I could get used to this, beats the hell out of walking through this damned snow. Then he suddenly hands me a white flash drive with operator symbols all over it. o.O

Mr.I:  "Yesterday a proxy by the name of Kelevra broke into my hotel room and left me this, the file is called "ForAlicia" personally I have no idea what to make of it"

Well that's fucking weird. Some proxy I never heard from gives a guy I hadn't met yet a flash drive that was meant for me? That's freaky.I just checked it out. It had one picture in it and another file I couldn't open for some reason.

This is the picture:



Seems like a threat or something. If that's supposed to be a representation of me being decapitated then I'm insulted. My nose isn't that big and pointy.
I'll try to figure out how to open this other file, hopefully I'll be able to tell you what it is next post.
I better stop writing because we're uncomfortably close to this river and I thought I just saw something move in the water. Its probably nothing but I'm not taking any chances.<x3

Meeting a stranger

Through e-mail I have agreed to meet with someone. I'm not sure I can trust them but the place they suggested as a meeting place is a cafe. There should be other people around so I doubt I'll be attacked. And even if I do I still have my knives for protection. I'm closer to the cafe than they said they were so I'll be arriving first.

I'll post about the meeting later. Wish me luck.<x3

Ranting

I don't know how long I can keep doing this. First I lose my mother. And then I have to leave everything behind to run from beings that can kill me by just looking at me.
Then I get my psychologist proxified while trying to get meaningless revenge. And now my last friend I had got killed despite of me trying to protect her.

But I can't think about that stuff and cry about it because then the cold bastard shows up. How can you mourn when whenever you try to, you risk being turned into an ice cube?!
I hate the cold boy the most but for some reason Slendy scares me a lot more. Just something about it. Its not as annoying as the cold boy but he is the reason I barely sleep at night. At least the intrusion hasn't shown itself outside of my old house. But now EAT is also following "studying" me.

How the hell did I manage to get four eldritch abominations chasing me? I know I shouldn't think about it too much. But if most runners don't even survive one of these things how am I supposed to survive all four? I just hope there won't be a fifth, I wouldn't survive another one. I just know I wouldn't.

I don't want to admit it but I'm very close to just giving up. I know you guys will tell me not to give up and to stop thinking about it. But I'm just human for fucks sakes, what do you expect?!
I think I know now why Cecilia hates being human. I still wouldn't become a servant of any Fear but I get why other people would.

I still think its wrong but there is only so much a human can take. And I'm getting way too close to that limit. I know they'll get me some day and that terrifies me. One day I will slip up one time too many and get myself killed. I'd like to think death would be easier but something tells me its just as bad or maybe even worse.

Maybe if I find that runner from Luxembourg I could at least get the cold boy off my back. I wonder If that girl he has with him is cute..<.<
Maybe I can comfort her for losing her boyfriend or something. No Alicia don't think like that, Ceci might get jealous. Not that it matters she's on another continent getting laid too.

This rant has been brought to you by Alicia. Enjoy it or else. <x3

Freedom

Finally escaped. The damn light hurt my eyes at first though. It took me a while but found out where I was, Kat's house. And yes she was there too, well kinda. I'm running ahead of myself again. x.x


I managed to lock pick the door thanks to google. Google has never been so useful before. o.o
Once my eyes adjusted to the light I could see I was upstairs in a house that I almost recognized. I didn't actually recognize it until I walked down the stairs and saw Kat standing in the kitchen. I ran towards her (not a smart thing to do, I know).

As soon as she turned around and looked at me I knew something was wrong. Her expression and her eyes were dull. Not just dull in a "I really don't give a fuck today" way but in a supernatural way. Kat was a fucking camper! The stupid bitch got herself camperfied or however you call it! Ugh.
That pissed me off so much that I slapped her across the face. It didn't do much, her expression didn't even change one bit. She just looked at me with those dull eyes before starting to talk.

Kat: "I see you have managed to escape sooner than expected."
Me:"You expected me to escape?"
Kat:"If the purpose of that room had been to make your escape impossible, you wouldn't be standing here."
Me:"...Then what was it for?"
Kat:"To buy time."
Me:"For what?"
Kat:"That information is not for you to know."
Me:"Whatever, I'm out of here. You better stay away from me, next time I see a camper I'll stab it!"
Kat:"Aren't you forgetting your backpack?"
Me:"What?"
Kat:"Your backpack with all your belongings. Its over there."
Me:"Why are you letting me take my stuff instead of, you know... Attacking me and trying to stop me from leaving?"
Kat:"My intent is not to hold you captive but to study you. And for me to do that you need to be alive."
Me:"Wait what? I don't get ...wha?"
Kat:"You need to get going. My camper have sighted the Slender man close by."


Just hearing that name made the hairs on my back stand up. I didn't waste time and grabbed my backpack which was in the kitchen corner. I don't trust Kat EAT at all. What was that bullshit about studying me? It killed Kat just to "study" me? That's just fucking wrong. Each time I see one of these fucking Fears they manage to get me even more angry than ever.

But why did EAT warn me and give me my stuff back? I'm so confused right now.<x3

Boredom

Don't ask about the problem from last post. Just don't.

I'm trying to occupy myself by playing online games, reading blogs and watching videos on YouTube. Trying not to think about anything that might depress me. I don't see how I would escape from the cold boy in here. Or from the slender man for that matter.
I wish I brought some Pokémon games. Might download some emulators. <.<

Still haven't heard anything from outside this room, kind of disturbing. I need to get out of here.
I'll try googling "How to lock pick a door in the dark". Never know, it might work. I'm sure as hell not waiting around till something or someone finds me in here.

I'll post again when I get any progress. By which I mean when I get the hell out of here.<x3

locked up

Free Internet yay! The only problem is that there isn't a toilet in here. My eyes have adjusted to the darkness now so that isn't an issue. I just need to pee really badly.
Yes I know, not something you wanted to know, get over it. I need to get out of here, if only I had my knives or something.

So for now I'm stuck here, at least I have the Internet to keep me busy. Kinda hard to write while wiggling and holding up my bladder. Who ever put me in here, why did you not give me bathroom access for fucks sake. -shakes fist-

Sorry for the short post but I can't write any longer! <x3

Fear showdown

I just woke up. I'm in some dark room with my laptop as the only light source. The room is very small, just a bed, a small desk and this bed I'm sitting on. The laptop is plugged in and charging. The door is locked and there are no windows.
I don't remember how I got here, I was in the middle of... Oh god.
I just remembered most of what happened. I'll start at the beginning I guess.


I was eating my breakfast when I started wondering if Kat was still alive. It wasn't long before I heard the nursery rhymes again. I immediately recognized the cold boys voice, it sounded like a harsh wind blowing through a crack in a window only louder. Creeps the shit out of me.
I ran before the little bastard was actually in the room. I didn't have to run for long before the rhymes stopped. But then I found myself face to face with that damned proxy, who was blocking my way.

I grabbed my wooden bat and prepared to strike. But then the nursery rhymes started again.So I decided running would be smarter and sprinted into the alley to my left. But I didn't get far, suddenly Slender man was blocking my way so I ran back.
The cold boy had already caught up so there I was, stuck between two fears, a proxy and a row of houses.


Slender man and the Cold boy stared at each other and the nursery rhymes stopped. Shivers ran down my spine. I had to get out of there so I charged at the proxy, the least dangerous of the three. I swung my bat and managed to knock him down. Just as I wanted to start running he got back up and grabbed my arm. His mask had fallen off, I froze when I saw his face, it was Jim!

I tried to swing my bat to make him let go but he managed to grab it before I could. His eyes seemed to look right through me. Before I could react he punched me and I fell down on the ground. He walked over to me with my bat and tried to hit me with it. I rolled out of the way and got back up. I tried looking for my knife but I was too busy dodging.

Meanwhile behind us the Slender man and cold boy were still staring at each other. Large balls of hail started falling down from the sky. And out of slendy's back came several branch like tentacles. They were obviously not happy to see each other.

One of the branches shot straight at the cold boy and impaled him. But then the branch started freezing rapidly. Slender man cut off his own tentacle/branch.
The cold boy shot a part of the frozen branch back at slender man. He managed to dodge it by disappearing and reappeared behind the cold boy. He readied his tentacle-branches to strike down at the boy. But the rest of the frozen tentacle shot out backwards at slendy and hit him at point blank range.

I didn't see what happened then as I had just found my knife and cut Jim's arm. This made him drop the bat. Seeing my chance I ran off while I could. I could barely see ahead of me because the cold boy apparently started a blizzard. After running for five minutes I was exhausted. And I must have blacked out. Because the next thing I remember I was waking up in this room.

I don't trust it here, I don't think anyone would. I don't hear any sounds outside so maybe I can break out somehow.<x3

Weaponizing

I took Knights advice and got myself two kitchen knives. A small one and one that's slightly bigger, about 15 centimeters longer. And a few cans of Raid, I love Raid, it kills the intrusion dead.
And I also got a wooden bat, couldn't find a metal one.

I'm feeling very bad ass right now, Lara Croft style or something. Ready to kick some proxy ass, I might be getting a bit overconfident. But at least I'm less vulnerable now. At least when it comes to proxies, no amount of weaponry can help me against Slendy or the Cold brat.
That last one showed up earlier.Its already cold in Belgium, that little bastard just makes it worse. If I sleep outside tonight I'll probably freeze to death. But I'm getting distracted.


I was in a public restroom when I heard the nursery rhymes. Took me less long to notice them this time so I managed to climb out the window before it was too late. I ran but slipped and fell because of the ice. The cold boy quickly found me. But luckily I managed to get back on my feet before he could bite me. Not that he would actually bite me but you know, frost bite..<.<

Running is a lot harder when the ground is slippery from the ice. But I managed to lose the cold boy as soon as I ran into a crowd. Now all I have to do is find a place to sleep and I will have survived another day of running.<x3

He just won't give up

Guess who was watching me from across the street while I was eating my pizza? Yeah, that fucking proxy. He just stood there watching me, I've told you guys before that I hate being watched. If I had a weapon I would have attacked the bastard but instead I had to wait.

Good thing that I'm a slow eater. He stood there for over an hour before finally giving up. I have no Idea why nobody noticed a guy with a mask standing there for that long. I mean the mask is pretty obvious with that red "Y" painted on it. Even if I didn't know what a proxy was I'd still be startled if I saw him standing there. I don't get people, I really don't.

So immediately after I finished eating I went and tried to see what weapon I could buy. Apparently even pepper spray is illegal in Belgium. Go figure.Not that it would help against a masked proxy but still, its stupid. Pretty much any weapon is illegal here, seriously you'd almost think the government is run by proxies. Trying to make it as hard as possible for us runners.<.<
That's probably not the case but I wouldn't be surprised if it was.

One very interesting weapon I came across while googling were weighted knuckle gloves. Couldn't find out if they were illegal or not but they probably are. How would I even get some of those?
I needed gloves anyway, might as well be weaponized ones. Easy to hide too, but I doubt I can get my hands on them, legal or not.

A baseball bat seems like the best option but I've never held one before. Baseball isn't a popular sport here either so I'm not sure if its a good option. But its the only one I got so unless anyone has a better suggestion I'll stick to it.
I really hope someone has a better suggestion though.<x3

First proxy

Took them long enough to show up, right? Yup, I finally encountered my first proxy. Unfortunately I still have no weapon. Sorry proxiehunter, I could not stab the bastard. I promise I'll get myself a weapon as soon as possible. And I'll stab him the next time I see his ugly facemask. Or something.


Instead I had to run as soon as I noticed a masked guy following me. He wasn't really that fast but
he just wouldn't give up. x.x
Just when I thought I lost him he showed up on the corner of the street ahead of me. We stood there for a while, quietly. It was late so we were the only people there, I think.
Suddenly he charged at me, I started running again. I jumped into a small side street and then over a fence. Ended up in a garden where I tried to hide. Which apparently worked, because when I came back out he was gone.


In other news, still no word from Kat. That can't be a good sign, If only she had listened...
I don't even want to think about it. So I'll keep this post short and go get me something to eat.<x3

Beds are the best invention ever.

I'm not kidding, finally got some good sleep. The hotel is kinda crappy but it beats sleeping outside. Especially with this cold weather. I'm pretty sure its not the cold boy, just winter. But I'm sure that fucking brat can show up any time. Atleast the nursery rhymes warn you when he's near. He's way less sneaky than Tall dark and handsome faceless.
That might just be because he likes to play with his victims or something.
I promised a full report on how I escaped the small bastard didn't I? Well I won't break my promises so here goes.


When I was ranting about how much I hated the Fears the nursery rhymes began. (Wy is it that they show up whenever I'm in the middle of a rant?) I could barely hear them at first but they slowly got louder. By the time I noticed them the cold brat was already standing in the room I was in. So I posted the message and ran outside.

The whole time I was running I could hear those damned nursery rhymes. Really they are annoying as hell. Once again I tried being unpredictable, taking random turns and shit. It seemed to have helped. After a while the nursery rhymes stopped but I didn't stop running for atleast another five minutes or so. Just to be sure you know?

I really should invest in some gloves, my fingers were hurting from the cold. Not much of a report I guess. Cold boy's chasing is even less interesting than Slender man's was. Oh well, better boring chases that I survive than interesting ones that kill me, right?
Maybe it would be more interesting if I had a weapon or something. Those Deicide guys had a post about electricity being able to hurt Fears. Just have to get my hands on some car batteries then. I've been running around without a proper weapon for too long now anyway.


I guess that means its shopping time, Jim's funds are a really awesome thing to have. Without them I'd be fucked and not in a good way. I'll post when something actually interesting happens for once.<x3

Don't feel like posting

Too tired, haven't slept last night. And the cold boy suddenly showing up, making me run untill I nearly collapsed did not help. AT ALL. That's one more Fear on my list of beings I wish would go fuck themselves and die.
I almost didn't notice the little bastard. Like I said I need sleep, lots of it. I promise I'll make it up to you guys tomorow with a full report on how I managed to avoid the incarnation of frostbite. Good night.<x3

I'm lost

I literally don't have a clue about where the fuck I am. When I started running I didn't really have a plan. The first two days consisted of me going from place to place. You know,locations that I knew well. So it would be easy to find food and stuff.
But then I just kept walking in mostly the same direction. Sometimes I took a turn to be somewhat unpredictable, and tried to stay away from areas with lots of trees or water.


But for the rest? Just random wandering without a goal or purpose, other than to stay alive I mean. So when I woke up earlier, I noticed that I had no idea where I was or where I was going. Thank Arceus for Google maps.


OK, found it. This sucks though, apparently I've been running south, towards Wallonia. I don't want to go there. The Walloons speak french, and aside from some simple vocabulary, I do not. So I need to change directions.
Jim's plan was to go to Germany, since he spoke German. But once again, I do not speak that language. I could just speak English there but you know, not everyone speaks English. So I guess going north, to the Netherlands is the best option. But that means turning around and going back where I came from. x.x
If only Belgium was a bigger country, then I would have more room for running. <.<


Switching topics now, Kat. She hasn't posted on her blog or commented on mine. Haven't gotten an  e-mail from her either. So that can mean two things.
1: She has stopped looking for me completely. Which would be great.
2: A Fear got her and she's dead. Which I hope hasn't happened but my gut feeling tells me otherwise.

I know her too well to think she'd go silent like this. She would at least send me a message that she had finally listened to me and stopped searching. Or her Internet just went down and she'll be up and posting again in no time, getting herself killed anyway. >.>

I really have a bad feeling about it and there's nothing I can do about it. I've never felt this helpless before.. Or angry,those fucking Fears are really pissing me off and if the cold boy doesn't stop with those goddamn nursery rhymes I will..wait..FUCK!

FUCK

Kat, please I know you're too stubborn to not read this. So please, for once listen to me when I say to stay out of this. I already lost my mother and my psychologist Jim to these things. If I lose you too then I'll just...

I don't even know what I'd do. Its just all too much, I know I have been acting like I'm doing fine, but I'm not. Its easy to hide your emotions on a blog, I've always hidden my emotions. You know this Kat. You have seen me hide my emotions behind jokes during the day, only to cry myself to sleep at night. I've done that a lot in the past but now... I cry every night, I cry during the day.

Hell I'm crying right now.

The real reason I haven't been writing down my dreams is because they're all the same. Watching my mother being eaten alive by the intrusion bit by bit. Until nothing is left, sometimes she talks while its happening telling me its my fault. I should have known it was the Intrusion that was taking over my bathroom. I should have told my mother. I should have..

Anyway that notebook you found, it's not mine. I never owned such a thing, I don't know what's in it but I do know that there is a 99% chance of it being a trap. I do not know by who or what but you have to believe me Kat!
How would a notebook even be intact after a fire that burned down a house?! Think about it Kat, it doesn't make sense!

I don't want you to end up in the same situation as I'm in, or worse.So please think about your own safety for once.These things are real and will fuck you up.Theres still a chance you'll be safe if you walk away now.Don't make me lose you too Kat, I beg you.

Everyone else reading this, I'm sorry for lying to you. I've been pretending to be fine while I'm not. You guys have helped me get through this so I feel bad for lying to you. I didn't even mention my arm STILL hurts from that Intrusion ant bite. Its much better though but still.

I want to thank all of you for supporting me, especially you Cecilia. I wouldn't have gotten ths far wthut yu

Ugh sorry, i cant wrte anmor,cryn to much

A new dream

Well enough distractions for now, so here is that dream I promised!


I was sleeping on a bench in a park, dangerous, I know. But where else am I gonna sleep, besides what can be more dangerous than being chased by Fears? Being chased by more Fears of course! (which I am, with cold boy chasing me now too. )



When I wake up an notice something behind me watching me, slender man. Problem was, I couldn't move. Only my head could turn a few inches, just enough to see his face towering above me. I was fucking terrified.I tried not to scream by closing my eyes,desperately trying to move.
When my body finally moved I wanted to run but IT was already gone.


I didn't sleep anymore that night and the next night, because it happened again. Two nights in a row for fucks sake. So now I'm tired and cranky as hell. Kat being an idiot doesn't help either, she's never been the brightest but that might be a good thing. Kat if you're reading this.. THEN STOP READING MY BLOG FOR FUCKS SAKE! WHEN I SAY STOP THEN FUCKING STOP YOU MORON!


Calm down Alicia, think happy thoughts... like pizza, music, Ceci..
That's better, calmed down now. Now I want pizza though and music... and Cecilia. <.<

In better news, I still haven't seen the Intrusion again. I hope they stay away...
And that's all I have to say for today, short post I know. Sorry.<x3

God damn it Kat!

I know you follow my blog now so I'll only say this once. WALK AWAY, RIGHT NOW! Forget about this blog and forget about me. And stop with that blog of yours, it'll only make things worse.
DO NOT come looking for me.

You are right this is all just me talking about my dreams. I'm alright, don't worry about me, I don't worry about you either. So just fuck off, yes I kissed you but it meant nothing. I was just messing with you. I don't give a shit about you, I don't even like you. SO STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM ME YOU ANNOYING CUNT!!

Everyone that follows this blog, tell Kat that she needs to stop stalking me. If she asks about my blog tell her the truth, that its just my dreams on a blog. And then tell her she should leave me the fuck  alone. She's the only one following me, not Slendy, not the Intrusion, just Kat! And it needs to stop NOW!

I will keep posting my dreams on here because I enjoy it and I know you guys do too. I'll post my dream from last night soon, but now I just need ..some distractions.<x3

Kat

I just got an e-mail from Kat, I'd copy paste it but its in dutch so I guess I have to translate it.

"Alicia!

Where are you?! The police is looking for you because your house like exploded! Are you alright? I heard about your mother, I'm sorry. I hope you're OK. I'm really worried about you D:
I haven't seen you in more than a week! I'm sorry about last time,I was just a bit angry. I won't be angry anymore. Just come back! I miss you! :( "

I'd love to go back, but I know better. If I go back I will put Kat's life at risk. And as much as it pains me to ignore her e-mail, I won't reply. It could be a trap after all, I doubt it but I have to be careful. At least now I know she doesn't hate me.

Its hard to resist though, even more so because of a dream I had. My dreams are still as messed up as they were but I didn't post them anymore because, well I forgot. They didn't matter much anymore anyway. But this one can't be a good sign.


It was snowing at night and the streets were completely empty. I was shivering as I walked through a street that never seemed to end. I looked into a window and saw my mother's reflection, turned around nothing there.
So I kept walking and walking and walking, the snow increased and it got colder. Next window had Jim's reflection, turned around, again nothing there.
Kept walking further, the lights went out. More snow fell on me, it felt heavy. Next window had Kat's reflection, turned around, once more nothing there.
A few steps further the wind started blowing hard, nearly knocked me over. Looked back into the window,saw a red headed girl standing in the reflection. I'm gonna guess it was Cecilia, shes the only redhead I know by name. (Yes Cecilia, you are now the girl of my dreams. I know, bad pun,sorry.)
She waved at me before her expression changed from happy to scared. She pointed to my left and the word "Run" appeared on the window. Then I heard:

"Lady bugs and butterflies,
Buzzing bees up in the sky.
Teeny, tiny little ants,
Crawling up and down your pants
Many insects can be found
In, out and all around. "

Cecilia was gone and instead a small boy stood in the reflection. I turned around and..
Then I woke up, if my previous dreams are anything to go by I need to find company quickly. Or I'll have the cold boy after my ass too. And I don't think I can handle three Fears.

So that makes it even harder to decline Kat's request. This just keeps getting worse and worse. Damn you Belgian runners, Y U NO MAKE BLOG.
Until next time.<x3

Phew

I'm okay,It didn't get me. That was a close one though,way too close for comfort. That pretty much confirms that It is after me, so much for having hope. I'm exhausted now, so much running. If Slendy shows up again now I'd probably be too tired to run. x.x
What happened? Slender man happened.If you read my last post you already know that. But I'll tell you the full story now.

As I was typing my last post I looked out the window of the bar I was in. And there It stood, across the street,"looking" at me. I panicked, wrote that last sentence in the middle of what I was writing,posted it and ran out the door. Good thing I already paid for my drink.

I ran into several alleyways trying to be as unpredictable as possible. Apparently that should help. Not too sure if it actually did since It chased me for quite a while. Its fucking hard to run from something that can just appear in front of you. He almost managed to grab me once, almost. Missed me by an inch, fucking arms are longer than I thought or they stretch, I don't know.

Maybe I should be more descriptive,although it would sound stupid. "I turned left, He popped up again so I turned right and kept running. Then he popped up in front of me again and tried to grab me, I dodged to the left and ran more, then he popped up again. etcetera "A page full of that, not that fun to read I think. But ye that's what it was. Slender man is too repetitive, how am I supposed to write exciting chasing scenes if he acts like that. Damned monsters these days, just ain't what they used to be. :/

At least I'm still alive right? Gotta keep moving for now, don't want him finding me again.<x3

I'm beginning to wonder if this all has been one big coincidence. Maybe the Intrusion just happened to open a hole in a random house, mine. Maybe they don't give a shit about me. Maybe Slender man was after Jim all along and I just happened to be nearby.
Because I still have seen no sign of either one of them since we blew up my house. Maybe I'm just a very good Runner? I mean I don't stop walking unless its for food or sleep. Except for the time I spend online of course.

Or maybe they're just fucking with me, waiting until I let my guard down. That's probably it, damned bastards. I'm still looking for a new weapon, as I said before Raid would be too suspicious. And I don't see how a knife would help against the Intrusion. ( And it would also be suspicious. <.<)
I'd also be tempted to stab stupid pigs that try to get into my pants. Just half an hour ago while I was eating, a guy sat down next to me.

"Hey babe, what ya doing?"
"Good sir, could I unkindly ask you to fuck off."
"Whoa, no need to get aggressive. Although I like aggressive girls!"
"You have three seconds to run away quickly before I break your nose. One, two.."
"You don't know what you're missing out on. Damned lesbian."

And then I killed him, just kidding. Funny how those kind of guys use the word lesbian as if its supposed to be an insult. When its a compliment.
Anyway, time for something more relevant liFUCK SLENDERMAN HAVE TO RUN

Venting

I'm not sure what to write about, not much has happened since my last post. But writing here and commenting on other Runners blogs is the only thing that makes me feel less lonely. I tried looking for more Belgian runners, no luck. Either Belgium has been Fear free until now, none of the runners here write blogs or they're all dead already. I'm hoping its the second option, since the first one is very unlikely and the third one.. Well yeah lets hope its not the third one.

During my search I've been reading a lot of blogs and learning a lot about the Fears. My conclusion? There's too many of the damned bastards. I think we can all agree on that, right?
Then we can also agree that there are too many damned proxies. I haven't seen any myself yet but just the thought of one of them existing is bad enough. I mean what kind of sick bastard would help the Fears? For one they can pretty much do everything themselves and secondly I'd rather be dead than aiding these abominations.
A word to any proxy reading this: The Fear is just using you, they don't give a shit about you and you shouldn't care about them either!

Of course there are those that can't help it, like puppets (the non-willing kind). Poor bastards,but they wouldn't be reading this anyway. I'm not going to hunt down proxies, theres already someone else that does that. But I swear I won't hesitate to deal with them violently if I happen to cross paths with one. So if there are any proxies in Belgium, stay the fuck away from me, I mean it. I blew up the intrusion, I'll do the same to you.

Yeah sorry, got carried away there,just got a little pissed reading about all these proxies. Like the Fears aren't bad enough themselves. And then this one blog about a guy who tries to kill Fears supposedly.. with a knife.. that he got from "God".
It was so funny that I even forgot to laugh.<.<
I'd wanna see him battle the intrusion, seriously people that are that stupid deserve being eaten alive.

Anyone else notice me being cranky today? God, I need to get laid.<x3

officially a runner.

I wasn't really a runner yet, seeing as how I never left this district until now. The furthest I went was a hotel less than half an hour driving away. Now that I've actually left the district I feel I can call myself a runner. Not something I want to be but I don't have much choice in the matter do I?
Unless you count getting eaten alive by hell bugs as an option, which I don't.

Right now I am running from three things.
1.The intrusion
2.Slender man
3.The cops


Right now that third one is giving me the most problems. I haven't seen much bugs around and I haven't seen slendy since "operation:Boom motherfuckers" blew up in my face. Pun intended.
So most of my time has been spent avoiding being seen, especially by cops. I'm pretty sure they're looking for me after my house blew up. And I don't want to get caught with Raid cans in my backpack, especially since those are what caused my house to explode. So I've gotten rid of the rest of the cans, now I need to find a different weapon against these bugs before they show up.

How do I hide from the police you ask? Well for one, the cold weather is a great excuse to wear a hood and a scarf to hide my face. I also only wear my new outfits, no not for showing off but just in case they have a description of what I was last wearing. And lastly I dyed my hair, they are looking for a blond girl after all. And now I'm not blond anymore, not going to tell which color though. You never know who reads these blogs.

In less serious news, while surfing the Internet I found out Gen 6 of Pokémon will be released in October. Yes I am a pokénerd and yes I would have played these games if I wasn't running away from eldritch abominations. No I am not too old for Pokémon, if you think that then fuck you.
Damned hell bugs taking away my Pokémon. :(

And my mother..and goddamn slender man taking Jim. And damn my stupid ass self for driving away Kat..
I know, at least shes safe but that doesn't help me feel less lonely. Dear Arceus I'm so fucking lonely..

I'm going to find something to cheer me up.<x3

Operation:Boom motherfuckers

Well that could have gone a lot better. Everything went according to plan until..
I think its better if I start at the beginning.

Jim parked the car somewhere safe and hidden from view. We got out and sneaked towards my house armed with a gasoline can and several cans of Raid. Jim wanted to kick in the door, I suggested using the key. That was the easy part, getting in.

Luckily Jim had brought a large stick to help us get through the spider webs. Otherwise I'd still be covered in web. I flipped on the light switch and prepared for the swarm to come but nothing did. The lack of bugs disturbed me more than it calmed me down. We made our way up the stairs, expecting the bugs to attack us at any time. Jim was shaking and so was I. <.<'

With the bathroom in sight we were hoping this would be easier than expected. But we knew better, things were going way too easily. I tried opening the door to the bathroom while shaking off the spiderwebs but the door seemed blocked. Jim had to help me push until we finally managed to get it to open.

The bathroom was completely covered by the hell bugs. They were crawling over the floor, the walls, the ceiling and everywhere you could imagine. Even in places you can't imagine, there were bugs crawling out of other bugs!
Ants, cockroaches, flies, beetles, Spiders (winged and non winged) and countless more species.
They all seemed to flow in from the hole that was now large enough for Jim to crawl into. (And Jim isn't a small guy.)

It wasn't until we threw the cans of Raid into the hole that they responded to our presence. They screeched so loud I had to cover my ears. Jim started pouring the gasoline over them which caused them to attack us. At this point it seemed smart to get the hell out of there.

I ran while spraying Raid in all directions and throwing the spare cans all over the place. Jim threw away the gas can and sprinted for the door while grabbing his lighter. However in front of the door stood IT,Tall dark and faceless, Slender man.
Me and Jim both froze in our tracks. It cocked its head to the left as if it was curious about what we were doing. This time I clearly saw it had no face and somehow it was even worse than in my dream, so much worse.. Just that wrongness about it, I can't describe it, I don't want to..

Jim accidentally dropped his lighter and the gasoline ignited behind him. The fire broke our trance or whatever it was and we started running just in time. The bugs caught up with us only to be incinerated by the fire. I pulled Jim along to the garden, which was our only way out with slendyfucker blocking the front door. The bugs screeching grew louder and louder as they were being roasted alive.

The first can of Raid exploded as the flames behind us spread over the house. The bugs seemed to have given up chasing us as they were too busy being fried. Me and Jim sprinted towards the garden and I leaped out the door, feeling the fire right behind me. I rolled in the grass just in case I was on fire. In all the confusion I couldn't tell whether I was or not.

I couldn't find Jim until an explosion turned my attention to the burning house. Jim stood there with slender man behind him. Both of them looking at me, I cried out to him to get out of there but he didn't react. I got back up and took a step forward when suddenly a large explosion blew me back on the grass. Must have been the Raid in the bathroom..

When I managed to look at the house again Jim and IT were gone. Just vanished, like poof ..
I didn't have time to stick around to look for them because that's when the sirens started. The police probably, so I got the hell out of there. Grabbed my backpack out of Jim's car and got as far away from there as possible.
And now I'm here,without Jim, without my mother, without Kat..all alone. Goddamn it.

I'll try to stay in contact with you guys...<x3

Plans

We found a hotel after a short ride. Belgium is so small and compact you can find anything within half an hour if you have a car. It might have been smarter to drive longer because we're still kinda close to my house. Not really smart right?

Well we're about to get even more stupid. We are going back to my house. Why the hell would we do that? Revenge, that's why.
We have been discussing and theorizing about the hell bugs for a few hours now. I remembered proxiehunter mentioning hives in the comments and how that hole might be connected to one. If that is true then closing down the hole would mean one less access point for the bugs right? Our plan is to blow up that access point and the house around it.

We fight our way to the bathroom and drop a few Raid cans near the hole. Then we run while spilling gasoline on the floor on our way back out. And drop some more Raid cans. Then we light the fucking place up and watch it burn to the ground, from a distance. The only houses nearby enough to catch fire are empty, so don't worry about people getting killed. We aren't THAT stupid.

If everything goes according to plan the Raid cans will explode and collapse the tunnel. And all the bugs in the house will be fried. Sure this won't stop the intrusion but I'll be damned if they use my home as an easy access point from wherever these fuckers come from.

"Operation: Boom motherfuckers" will take place some time after midnight today. Wish us luck.<x3

Apologies

I apologize for not believing anything about "the intrusion". Like Alicia said in her previous post, the flying spider convinced me. After all if spiders can have wings, then what else is possible?
This all sounds like a badly written horror movie or something, but worse. Alicia is planning on running from these things but can she survive by herself? She is smart enough but she is only 17! She should be worrying about school, not about human eating insects.

But it is what it is, if she stays here she will be eaten alive. That is why I decided I will help her in any way I can. For all I know the bugs might come after me too anyway. If we stick together things will be somewhat easier. I withdrew most of my money from the bank. With no bills to pay we will have enough money for a few months. My car will also be useful.
Later today we will try to find a cheap hotel to stay at. Separate rooms, because unlike what Alicia claims, I am not a creeper.
By the way thank you for all the advice you have given us.

-Dr.Jim Witfeld

Shopping spree

Like I said before I needed to go shopping. Thanks to Jim my budget went up to 500 euros. The flying spider was good for something after all, go figure. A list of my Inventory:

One large backpack,three full outfits(cheap), Hiking shoes, Two sturdy flashlights, Multitool. (By this time I was out of money <.< running is more expensive than I thought. Luckily Jim had most of the other things laying around.) First aid kit,sleeping bag and some food.
I'm glad I already had a cellphone. And I'm taking this laptop, Jim gave me permission.

But wait aren't we forgetting something you say? OH YES,RAID! Jim went out and bought an entire box full of Raid cans. I have a feeling we will need them soon. If only I had my mothers bank card, I'm sure there's still quite a lot of money on her bank account. Or do you think her being "missing" would cause them to freeze her bank account? Missing, because the police still haven't found the body, so they still don't know that shes dead. I didn't exactly tell them about the intrusion, they wouldn't believe me anyway.

Not that it matters, the card is somewhere in my former house. It'd be nice to have though. But for now I'm ready to start running, just one last night in a normal bed and I'll be out of here.

Good news is that I haven't seen any bugs recently. With it being winter that's not that odd, if I did see a bug it'd probably be the intrusion. I don't think they'd let slightly cold weather hold them back.
The bad news, I think I saw "tall dark and handsomefaceless" out of the corner of my eyes when I was looking for a spare bra, the pervert. Might have been mistaken but if it was him then it would be the first time I see him in real life. Last time was just a dream but if he is anything like in my dream then he scares me more than the intrusion. Hell bugs are creepy and scary as fuck, but that Thing paralyzes my body with fear just by being close. What does it even want?.. I don't want to know.

<x3

'Raid'ing my former home.

Jim didn't want to believe me about the Intrusion, the flying tarantula changed his mind. I'm not making this up, it was a tarantula with wings! And it almost flew into Jim's face. Would have been funny if it didn't scare the living shit out of me. Spiders are not supposed to have wings for fucks sake! They just shouldn't.

You might want some more context with that. You see, Jim strongly insisted I go back to school tomorrow. One of my excuses was:"I don't have my backpack and school books!" Because he wouldn't accept the fact that I was being followed by the bug army from hell. So I needed excuses, I did not want to go to school. Could you imagine the bloodbath that would happen if the bugs followed me there? Yeah, wouldn't be pretty now would it?

His solution? Escort me home and go get my school materials! Yeah, I rolled my eyes too. <.<
But there is no reasoning with this guy so off we went( with several cans of Raid). The second we opened the door the flying spider came at us, we dodged and I sprayed an entire can on its ugly ass before it keeled over. "Believe me now?" I asked.
I didn't get a response, Jim was way too horrified to say anything more than:"Wha-wha-aa..spi-spiderrr..flll-fly". "Ye that was my first response too." I replied. Well something similar, since I hadn't seen a flying spider before. But I muttered something like that when the spider crawled out my mothers mouth. And kept doing that for the following 10 hours.

Jim got over it faster, only by 3  hours or so but still. Luckily, that spider and all the webs covering the place, convinced him to get the hell out of there before any other bugs showed up. So I'll have to find my survival items somewhere else. The ones I left at home would be full of webs and bug eggs anyway. Good thing I still have some money left from my former job.

Shopping time!<x3

I'm back

You guys have already heard about what has happened from Jim. But I think I'm finally ready to write down the whole story. Thinking about it still makes me tremble though. So I'll start with the less horrific parts.

After my last post I was too scared to go back to sleep so I went to take a shower. At least I wanted to but the bugs crawling all over it changed my mind. "Good thing they can't escape from the bathroom" I thought. Oh boy, I couldn't have been more wrong ..
So I just washed myself at the kitchen sink and had breakfast. Then watched some TV until it was time to go to school. One good thing about school, the boring classes make you forget the nightmares you had.

Instead my mind drifted to Kat and how I needed to find her. Which is what I went to do during the lunch break. Unfortunately I couldn't find her, she probably had her lunch break earlier. Damn those separate lunch breaks, who the hell invented those?
I finally managed to find her just after school, waited on her at the gate. I know it seems stalker-ish but I was getting desperate. She tried to avoid me when she saw me but I ran after her.

Me:"Kat! Please don't run, I just want to apologize."
Kat:"Alicia, I don't th-"
Me:"I'm sorry Katrien (her full name is Katrien but everyone just says Kat) I didn't mean to k-"
Kat:"We shouldn't talk about this here!"
Me:"..Then lets find somewhere where we can."
Kat:"...I don't have time now,just call me later whe-"
Me:"I tried calling yesterday!You didn't answer, I even tried waiting for you on faceb-"
Kat:"..I was just..I.."
Me:"..."
Kat:"..."
Me:"..It was the alcohol, I knew you weren't into girls and yet I.."
Kat:"That's your excuse?! The booze? That's just.. ugh."

She looked like she was going to punch me but instead turned around and walked away. I only made things worse,like always. But like proxiehunter said in the comments, she might be safer this way. This didn't make me feel much better though. After that I went home, just wanted to go to bed again. But it only got worse.

When I got home I noticed my mother was still home, she should have been at work. She was staring at the TV, which was on the same channel I left it on. This got me worried, so I asked her if she was okay. She didn't answer. I panicked and started shaking her to get a reaction. Instead a spider crawled out of her mouth, I screamed and stumbled back. I was horrified when I saw more bugs crawling out of my mothers mouth and even more crawled out from behind the couch. I started running to the stairs, when I looked back the whole living room was covered in bugs. Halfway down the stairs I tripped over a lobster, no seriously A FREAKING LOBSTER!

I fell and lost my glasses, the bugs were getting too close, way too quickly. So I had no time to worry about my glasses. With my vision blurred I struggled to the front door. Then a giant flying ant (I think it was an ant) bit me, it felt like being hit by a bullet. I fell down again screaming in pain before finally reaching the door. I got up and ran outside and closed the door before they could follow me. And I just kept running for what seemed like hours.

I rested for a bit when I realized they were no longer chasing me. I couldn't go back home, I needed to go somewhere. With my mother dead and my only friend hating me, I decided to go to Dr.Witfeld. He should have read my blog, it would be easier to explain to him right? Well no, it wasn't, I can't blame him though. I wouldn't have believed anyone that said that they were being chased by a super bug army from hell that killed my mother either.

It took me a long time to reach his office which just happens to be on the floor beneath his apartment. Its kinda hard navigating the streets without the glasses you've been used to wearing for the last ten years. "Kinda hard" that's an understatement.. It was almost impossible!

Anyway, now I'm here in Dr. witfeld his.. I mean Jim's place. But I'm gonna start taking the advice from the people commenting on here. They seem to know what they're talking about. Jim already gave me a new pair of glasses, otherwise I wouldn't be able to type this. Now I just need the things on that list of "items every runner needs" and I'll be out of here. Don't want Jim or any of his patients being eaten by those fucking bugs too.

I'll try to stay in touch.<x3

Alicia's mother is missing

Alicia says she is dead but the police found no trace of the body. Just some spider webs and a large hole in the bathroom. They said they would investigate it. Hopefully Alicia is wrong about her mother. She still has not said much, whatever happened must have been terrifying. Earlier a fly got into the living room and Alicia freaked out and threw a chair at it. Amazingly somehow she actually managed to kill it that way. After that incident she stopped talking entirely though.

According to Alicia her mother was killed by some type of insects. Its doubtful that some insect would kill a person without leaving a body. But until she gets out of her shock that is all we get from questioning her. These bugs she refers to as "intrusion". Looking at the comments on this blog that name seems to get mentioned a few times. Alicia would not believe in that kind of nonsense though. She is smarter than that, an army of arthropods, really? Grow up, you bunch of kids. If you people are the reason Alicia is so upset then you should be ashamed of yourselves.

Once she calms down we will find out what really happened. But Alicia shouldn't look at this blog until then. It would only upset her more, in fact she should never look at this blog ever again. But I can not force her so it will be up to her to decide what to do with it.
-Dr. Jim Witfeld

Dr.Witfeld

Alicia showed up at my office earlier this evening. She looked shocked, her hair was a mess and she was not even wearing her glasses. She never goes anywhere without them. She did not say what was wrong, just kept trembling. Muttering to herself,about several kinds of bugs and "Through the hole they intrude". She said that several times, it seems familiar.
Her mother didn't answer her phone. Alicia can sleep on my couch tonight, maybe she will be able to talk in the morning.

-Dr. Jim Witfeld

WTF!!

I.. What.. give me a second..

OK I'm alright now,I just woke up. This dream was even more creepy than any other one I had recently.
I was lying on the floor in the hallway when I  felt a small bite on my arm. I Grabbed whatever bit me and threw it away. When I looked at it I saw it was some kind of disgusting maggot/leech thing. Eww.. just.. eww..

Then I noticed something sticky and wet on my back, I got up on my feet and looked. I had been laying in some sort of a puddle with more maggot thingies wriggling in it. I almost puked before running into the living room to tell my mother.

She just nodded, she seemed too busy on the laptop to care. Suddenly I noticed the lights in the hallway flickering before fading out. Shivers ran down my spine as a tall figure leaned down and peeped through the door. Its head came up to the ceiling, no human should be that tall. He..I mean IT was wearing a dark grey suit, tie and a hat. Its face looked old.. or wait.. no it had no face ..I can't remember. The more I try remembering its face the more vague it gets..

This.. figure crawled through the door that was way too small for it. The way it moved was not natural, jerky and glitchy. I tried warning my mother but she seemed to be unable to hear me, no matter how hard I yelled. Frozen in fear I watched as it walked over to me, seemingly sliding as it stepped closer. After four steps it was in front of me, I tried looking up at it but couldn't move a single inch of my body. The creature stepped over me, I blacked out and woke up..
What the fuck was that?!

EEK BUGS!!

Lots of them, in the bathroom! Ants and flies, where the hell did they come from?! Probably the same place that spider came from. I need to find out how to prevent more from coming in. Ugh, I hate bugs, not as much as I hate spiders but still. Hopefully we'll get rid of them today, somehow.

I tried to call Kat yesterday, she didn't answer her phone. She wasn't on facebook either, how can I apologize if I can't contact her? Damn it, guess I'll have to find her at school tomorrow. Another reason to look forward to the first day of school. <.<
Still can't believe how stupid I was. I mean, I knew she wasn't into girls. So why did I?.. I'm not getting out of bed today. That reminds me I had some creepy dreams. I Only remember some bits though.

One of the dreams was me walking through the hallways of the school again. Running up and down several sets of stairs while being confused as fuck. The fact that the school was empty didn't help my nerves much either. It got even worse when I felt like I was being watched, I hate that feeling. I got scared and started running as fast as I could. Suddenly the lights went out and I stopped running.

In the next dream I had been bitten by a zombie. A bunch of other people were discussing whether they should kill me or not. I got angry when one of them said:"She ain't worth the trouble lets just kick her out and use her as a distraction". I tackled him and started punching at his face. He grabbed my hands and the next thing I know I'm biting his nose right off. Don't remember what happened after that but I'm gonna guess I turned into a zombie.

In the last dream I remember I was running through a dark forest. Running from something again.. I've been having a lot of these dreams. The trees were so close to each other that I couldn't run through without several branches hitting me in the face. They felt like tiny claws scratching at me. But I had to run from the thing chasing me, I couldn't let some creepy branches stop me. Then suddenly there were no more sounds, not from the leaves beneath my feet, not from the wind, nothing at all. And then the trees were gone too, I was surrounded by darkness. It was then that I felt something breathing down on the back of my neck. I screamed.

These dreams just keep getting worse I hope. I don't have any dreams for a while now, they're freaking me out. And I've run out of things to say so I'll stop here.<x3

Akward hangover

Ugh my head feels like a bunch of elephants have been break dancing on it. I'd laugh at that image but it hurts too much for that. Yes I know its all my own fault, my mother reminded me of that enough times today already.

I don't regret drinking so much though, not at all.I'm more concerned about what happened yesterday. You see, me and my friend Kat had been drinking and dancing all night when finally the countdown to 2013 began. We counted along with the people on TV "Five, Four, Three, Two, One, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!". And then we hugged, she slipped and we fell down on my bed. And then I was stupid enough to kiss her! >_<

There was an awkward pause before she pushed me away and ran out the door. Her face pretty much gave away she was both shocked and horrified. I know I was drunk and it was mostly the alcohol at fault but I'd be lying if I said it was the first time I wanted to kiss her. I'm pretty sure that unlike me, she's straight. So I probably just lost my only friend I had left.
After she left I said fuck it and started to drink until I passed out. Good way to start the new year Alicia. <.<

I seem to be forgetting the reason I started this blog, to record my dreams! I don't remember much of my dreaming last night, I don't remember much of last night period. But this small part I do remember.

Me and some old friends got on a bus, Kat was there too. We were telling jokes and laughing at them louder than we should have. They weren't that funny, at least I don't think they were. When suddenly the bus stopped driving and a thick fog came out of nowhere. We couldn't see anything outside of the bus anymore. This caused some of us to panic, including me.

The driver told us to stay inside and said that we had hit someone. He went outside and disappeared into the fog. We waited for a while and stayed close to each other. Kat was holding on to me and shivering. I wanted to hold her and tell her everything would be alright but I was just as scared as her. Then the bus started shaking which freaked us out even more causing everyone to run out of the bus.

As soon as I stepped outside I heard inhuman screaming coming from every direction. I grabbed Kat her arm and ran out of there as fast as I could. I couldn't see anything through the fog and almost ran into a wall. Then I saw an alleyway where there was less fog, I sprinted towards it while dragging Kat behind me. I looked back at her, she looked as if she was going to piss her pants in fear. I couldn't blame her.

Just as I thought we were safe a loud roar sent shivers down my spine. I grabbed Kat again and ran. Suddenly a dark pit appeared below us and we fell down. When the darkness faded I saw Kat lying next to me. She stared at me as blood dripped from her lips. Then I woke up.. I think or I had another dream, I don't know. I blame the booze.

And now I'm going to throw up in the bathroom.<x3